"If I were to reject Mamura now I know I would not have changed anything from before. I would still be the same person as before, pining for Sensei. Nothing would change. Having said all that, my feelings may not be clear yet. I might be just using Mamura’s feelings and it might be selfish of me to say but, I will go towards Mamura with all my might and effort. That’s why if… If Mamura thinks this is okay, or if this is a waste of time, or if you feel like it’s a good thing to do then, please…"